Another lousy poem

Where I fucked it up 

I also wrote this poem yesterday



You.

My eyes could never get wide enough 

to take you all in 

staring constantly staring 

in disbelief 
 
Is this real life? 

How did I get so lucky? 
 
You used to floss your teeth with my hairs 

rolling individual strands around 

with your tongue 
 
And your tongue in my mouth 

coated sweet with caffeine 

and hairs tickling my lips 

sometimes your kiss so deep 

your nose would whistle and poke my eye 

but I liked it 

every moment of it 
 
I look at the bed we made love on 

just the day before 

and I can’t muss it. 

I sit next to it longingly. 

I remember our bodies 

intertwined 

and how you encompassed in the white sheets after 

as you dripped out between my legs 
 
I smile 

a sad smile 

but a smile nonetheless 

and it was short lived 

like your love for me 
 
The butterflies that have been there since the very beginning 

still remain 

except now they’re made of iron 

and tearing away at my insides 
 
Guess I am just a ghost 

a shadow of what I once was.

Bad poetry


Today I went outside

I sat in the ugliest place I could find

wet feet cold cheeks

dirty snow and a junky couple yelling at each other about joints

as my coat fell apart and floated away
I thought about all the places where it went wrong

where I did wrong

and what I could have done differently

It’s all clear in hindsight

I just hope it’s not too late

Heartbreak 


I fell in love recently.

The emotions were so beautiful, intense and pure that it honestly felt like it was the first time I’ve ever loved someone.

And it didn’t work out.

Just 40 days after we met, he ended it.

I know it was my fault. He was so good, too good, and I wasn’t good enough for him. I was always honest and tried my best to make him feel special, happy. 

I really tried but not everything is within my control I suppose. 

I’m breaking in half. I am fractured. I still love and miss you… 

Friday I’m in Love | Risotto: a labor of love 

Risotto is truly a labor of love.

Lately I’ve been cooking a bit healthier, and gluten-free. My person doesn’t consume gluten because it causes inflammation and he’s got a few health issues that warrant the diet change. 

Risotto isn’t the most beautiful food, but it’s the coziest food. More than anything, homemade risotto is the most loving food. When you are constantly stirring for an hour plus, adding all the right ingredients at the right moments, plus all the preparation in advance…. It’s a lot of work, but that’s half of what makes risotto worth it. Plus since it takes so damn long to make, I only make it maybe a few times a year for special occasions. Today was not special at all, although somewhat magical with all the snow, but this was necessary. 

Arborio rice, mushroom, onion, garlic cooked in veggie broth… then with roasted red pepper, bay scallop, calamari, and shrimp added in the last 5 minutes or so with a lot of stirring and adding more liquid in between and assessing at various intervals. 


The breakdowns aren’t really accurate, but I started with 1.5 cups of rice and used at least 4 cups of broth. You only add a half cup of broth at a time, stir stir stir over medium heat in a pan, then add a bit more when it gets low. Around the 30-45 minutes mark, I start to taste it. When the rice is soft, usually around an hour in, that’s when I added the seafood and pepper. It cooks quickly after that, maybe another 5 minutes at most to get the calamari firm and the shrimps/scallops to become opaque. I used half an onion, 4 garlic cloves, and half a container of mushrooms. I used about a pound of seafood. I finished it off with some real Parmesan cheese and a nice bright peppery arugula. Serve hot and toss the arugula with the risotto to wilt it a bit.


Ta-da!

Why I have been such a slacker.

presidentslist

But, go me! President’s list! I have a 3.9 GPA in my bachelors of nursing program. My social life has taken a bit of a hit, and I’m more skeptical to go on vacations with questionable internet access, and my buying a house has taken a backseat, but in just 9 more months I will be golden. It will be worth it!

 

What I’m Wearing Wednesday

Dress: Marc by Marc Jacobs | wedges: J Crew

When your nursing school bestie gets hitched, you get dressed up! I kept buying dresses this summer saying they were for my girl’s big day but I eventually decided on this one. I got a million compliments. However I did get yelled at for wearing a white dress to her wedding. Sorry Suz.. it was wrinkly and kinda green if it makes you feel any better. 

And I’m off!

Snow in Boston! 

I love the snow, but I’m delaying being in much of it for a little bit. For the next few weeks I’m headed down to Mexico and Cuba. It will be nice to get away by myself and just take in some good food and scenery. The sporadic (and sometimes complete lack of) internet will be a nice break. Adios! 

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